Hearing His Voice

You ever been around people that just brag about their adventure and you just want to experience it for yourself? Well, this was me and the year 2015 was definitely an experience to remember. For a couple of years (at least it felt that way) I was desiring to have another type of experience with God. I read about him, sung about him , prayed to him , and felt I needed more. I wanted to hear his voice . I knew God had different ways of getting my attention but I wanted to hear him for myself.
I prayed and prayed ..nothing happened. I turned off all of my distractions..nothing happened. I even went on a complete fast ..and NOTHING HAPPENED! That season was very frustrating ! It’s like calling a restaurant to make an order and no one is picking up the phone so you’re questioning if you even have the right number, lol. I talked with my aunt and her response was to keep waiting . So one fun fact about me is that I’m an introvert ( I wouldn’t say I’m quiet 100% )but my mind stays busy like NYC traffic, which I guess made it hard to hear God.
One day in January 2015, the weather was at its coldest and living in the south with snow was the motivation I needed to stay in from work. I had my t.v off , just finished a meal , and started washing dishes. As I washed the dishes in complete silence it was at that moment I heard his voice. I always imagined I would hear a loud , thunder, manly voice and I’m glad that didn’t happen because I probably would of ran out of my apartment,lol.
The best way I could describe how he sounded to me is similar to my thoughts. A confident, strong sounding thought if that make any sense. If you could imagine hearing your parents speak to you but in your voice , that’s what it was . I knew it was him because I know how I think and talk. He said ” hello daughter , it’s great to hear from you .” My eyes stretched and I felt overwhelmed with joy. The experience I waited so long for finally came and the anticipation was worth every minute. 

The Waiting Room

You’ve arrived on time for your checkup appointment and pretty excited because you know the time you sit down you’re going to be called. You already gave the receptionist the necessary paperwork and you’re ready. Hmm.. they will call me soon, you think to yourself, so to help pass the time you start to notice your environment. The waiting room is filled with people that need to be seen as well.

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One by one, everyone is being called to the back and it’s starting to get frustrating because there were people that did not have to wait as long. Your frustration builds to anxiety and now you’re going up to the front desk asking questions. They reassure you that the doctor will see you soon, he’s preparing some things for you; however, your patience grows thin. Your phone goes off from people sending messages asking,”why are you still waiting ?” “When are you going to move forward?”

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You don’t respond because they wouldn’t understand. You did everything you were supposed to, now it’s your job to wait and be called. Finally realizing your pacing back and forth is not changing the outcome, your attitude changes while you wait. You take advantage of the wait by embracing small opportunities like reading the magazines or checking your email on your phone. Time goes by but you’re gaining wisdom and understanding. You stopped focusing on the messages, the people that were seen by the doctor before you, at that moment the door flung open and you knew the wait was over.

door-240x300 How many of us had moments like this? We ‘wait’  anxiously for God’s big call while overlooking small opportunities to grow. I know this is a challenge for me but as a father, God, constantly reassures he will not forget about me. It may seem like everyone is moving forward before me but God knows I did everything I was supposed to and now it’s my job to wait for the door to open.  So stay encourage and know that soon our wait will be over ūüôā

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Breaking up is hard work

“We would like to bring you on board with our company! Will you accept our offer?”¬† My moment had finally come ! 100 applications & 20 interviews later..¬†resulted in a job offer !¬†I was excited and thankful for God’s blessing ,oh¬†how I waited¬†for this¬†transition , but somehow I needed time to reflect.

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I remembered¬†when God promised to¬†take me¬†from my night¬†job to¬†place me elsewhere¬†. The following day as I took my 15 min break I saw a beautiful rainbow that was confirmation for me. I was excited and wrote my 2 week notice … a YEAR ahead of time! I saved it to my computer , waiting on my golden willy wonka ticket¬†for better opportunity. So, the moment had presented itself and I’m in awe. No longer having to get off work wee hours of the morning, taking 15 min breaks to refresh my mind from the workload¬†by playing Lumosity on my phone, and being under strict management.¬† I was accustomed to everything and as much as I wasn’t fond of my love-hate relationship with the lab¬† I started feeling like I was going to miss the routine of things.

I learned a lot during those 4 years (eekk!) especially about God’s promise. He protected me from not getting fired , provided financially , and kept his promise . I was nervous about God answering my prayers but I realized in order to fulfill the vision he has for me I needed to press forward. Maybe its not a job you’re seeking but you’re praying and asking for help. God hears your every detail and when he answers he won’t leave anything out because he’s that awesome. It’s true you may not get your prayer answered the next day but as you mature you’ll notice how God is leading you to something beyond your imagination. I’m starting to learn God is in control and I need to obtain more of his character before I become a dentist.¬†A part of being more like him requires breaking up with something even if its hard work.

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Being too busy..

Outside of work and shadowing dentists I also volunteer as a prayer partner at a local Christian tv station. It’s pretty straightforward : people call from all over and I pray for them.. prayer hotline. On this particular day¬† one of the prayer partners received a call from a lady that needed prayer for peace because she felt guilty. As the story unravels, the lady felt guilty because her neighbor committed suicide and God told her to see how they were doing the day before however, she was too busy.

I’m not sure about you but I know there have been plenty of times I’ve been too busy. There¬†are times when it seems the hours skip by and I’m still trying to figure out what I want for breakfast. There were times I would be so preoccupied with things and at the end of the day I’ve still accomplished nothing. Somehow my results are different when God is in the equation, my day just seems to flow in balance. A lot of times we won’t have a clue to why he wants us to do something but its our job to go with the flow. (Jeremiah 29:11) “For I know the plans I have for you.. “.¬† There are so many people throughout the world that needs help and that may be waiting on someone like you and me to do just that. The job you’re seeking , degree you’re going after, business you’re creating is not just to benefit you but to benefit others as well¬† ūüôā . So I challenge you and myself what can we do to help someone else today? Remember beautifuls, you’re never too busy to make a difference .

..trying not to become the worst cook in america

One of the ¬†things I hear about dental school is time management. Time¬†is essential when it¬†comes to studying¬†, spending time with family , and¬†everything else. I try to manage my time¬†well¬†including learning how to¬†be efficient.¬† So, one of my struggles is SWEETS ( part of my inspiration to my blog name, IntrovertedFillings )! I love sweets¬† , like one of my favorite channels¬†is Food Network¬†where I watch Cupcake Wars and Cuttthroat Kitchen .¬† Thing is , I don’t make time to create new food ( picky eater ) and I want to learn new things …just as long as I’m not in the kitchen for hours or burning the kitchen :-/.¬† One of my favorite sites I like to go on for inspiration would be Pinterest.¬† From exercises to diy arts & crafts , its amazing especially when it comes to finding quick recipes. Last night, I decided to try “biscoff cake in a mug” ..

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This isn’t the actual one I made but just wanted to give you a visual.¬† It tasted great and it only took a few minutes to prepare . The only thing is I wish I had some type of frosting or something but no time was wasted nor did I have a lot of dishes to wash whoo hoo!! Today I’m trying peach cobbler using cake mix and I hope the results are as good as the pictures they have on pinterest lol . Well, keep me in prayer when it comes to cooking/baking and for my taste buds to stop being judgmental to certain types of foods :-/. Take care !

  

Let’s go after our vision!

Into the first full week of 2016 and I have the same joy I had during NYE church service! The reason being is because my pastor shared a great word on how to be effective and have a prosperous year.¬† So to start the year off right we need to re evaluate who we associate ourselves with. Be with wise individuals that will sharpen you. When working on your vision, commit to God first. Ask for wisdom and understanding. Next, define your purpose in the assignments you’ll have for the year. For example, when applying for a job, define your purpose and how it fits into your overall vision. While some may take longer to meet their vision than others, DO NOT GIVE UP! When you’re baking or waiting for your food at a restaurant , you simply don’t give up because they seem to be taking a long time¬† , you wait until you get what you asked. It’s the same in our relationship with God. Don’t give up nor allow others to doubt your vision. I’m excited for all of us!