Hearing His Voice

You ever been around people that just brag about their adventure and you just want to experience it for yourself? Well, this was me and the year 2015 was definitely an experience to remember. For a couple of years (at least it felt that way) I was desiring to have another type of experience with God. I read about him, sung about him , prayed to him , and felt I needed more. I wanted to hear his voice . I knew God had different ways of getting my attention but I wanted to hear him for myself.
I prayed and prayed ..nothing happened. I turned off all of my distractions..nothing happened. I even went on a complete fast ..and NOTHING HAPPENED! That season was very frustrating ! It’s like calling a restaurant to make an order and no one is picking up the phone so you’re questioning if you even have the right number, lol. I talked with my aunt and her response was to keep waiting . So one fun fact about me is that I’m an introvert ( I wouldn’t say I’m quiet 100% )but my mind stays busy like NYC traffic, which I guess made it hard to hear God.
One day in January 2015, the weather was at its coldest and living in the south with snow was the motivation I needed to stay in from work. I had my t.v off , just finished a meal , and started washing dishes. As I washed the dishes in complete silence it was at that moment I heard his voice. I always imagined I would hear a loud , thunder, manly voice and I’m glad that didn’t happen because I probably would of ran out of my apartment,lol.
The best way I could describe how he sounded to me is similar to my thoughts. A confident, strong sounding thought if that make any sense. If you could imagine hearing your parents speak to you but in your voice , that’s what it was . I knew it was him because I know how I think and talk. He said ” hello daughter , it’s great to hear from you .” My eyes stretched and I felt overwhelmed with joy. The experience I waited so long for finally came and the anticipation was worth every minute. 

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The Waiting Room

You’ve arrived on time for your checkup appointment and pretty excited because you know the time you sit down you’re going to be called. You already gave the receptionist the necessary paperwork and you’re ready. Hmm.. they will call me soon, you think to yourself, so to help pass the time you start to notice your environment. The waiting room is filled with people that need to be seen as well.

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One by one, everyone is being called to the back and it’s starting to get frustrating because there were people that did not have to wait as long. Your frustration builds to anxiety and now you’re going up to the front desk asking questions. They reassure you that the doctor will see you soon, he’s preparing some things for you; however, your patience grows thin. Your phone goes off from people sending messages asking,”why are you still waiting ?” “When are you going to move forward?”

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You don’t respond because they wouldn’t understand. You did everything you were supposed to, now it’s your job to wait and be called. Finally realizing your pacing back and forth is not changing the outcome, your attitude changes while you wait. You take advantage of the wait by embracing small opportunities like reading the magazines or checking your email on your phone. Time goes by but you’re gaining wisdom and understanding. You stopped focusing on the messages, the people that were seen by the doctor before you, at that moment the door flung open and you knew the wait was over.

door-240x300 How many of us had moments like this? We ‘wait’  anxiously for God’s big call while overlooking small opportunities to grow. I know this is a challenge for me but as a father, God, constantly reassures he will not forget about me. It may seem like everyone is moving forward before me but God knows I did everything I was supposed to and now it’s my job to wait for the door to open.  So stay encourage and know that soon our wait will be over ūüôā

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Red light , Green light

In the game Red light, Green light one person is chosen to be the traffic cop . The other players stand a few feet away while the ‘cop’ has their back facing the players. When the ‘cop’ says “green light”, the players race to tag him/her. When the ‘cop’ says “red light” , the players have to stop in their tracks . If the’ cop’ catches someone moving that person have to return to the starting line and the first person that tags the ‘cop’ wins.

RedlightgameI love the principle of this game , it’s not like Mother May I where you need validation to move.  In ‘Mother May I ‘ , every step you make is closely watched, whether it’s to see your progress or you fail and as a result start over similar to ‘Red light, Green light’.

For the longest I’ve played ‘Mother May I’ with the wrong people or having the wrong attitude. Some ‘moves’ I made in the past were from validation , you know , you think you’re in the right direction because you have someone’s approval only having to start over. I was used to this game until I started paying attention to some of God’s lessons. Did you know God knows our complete story before we were born? (Jeremiah 1:5) Therefore we don’t need someone to approve our purpose, personality, or appearance! Also instead of valuing everyone’s opinion I believe he likes us to consider him and play ‘Father May I’ instead. The difference in his game is that he’s merciful and when you move without his permission , he won’t let you start completely over.

The game to play with everyone along with the right attitude is Red light, Green light. I was taught how to make big moves while moving silently. I used to share my ideas before strategically planning so you could only imagine my list of fails lol. It’s not bad to share your plans but for me it made a big difference.

Mother May I and Red light, Green light are fun games to play especially when applied in life. Learn to move silently without the approval of others and you’ll be on your way towards your goals!

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The Power of Saying “NO!”

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If every answer to a question was a ‘yes’ I wonder what would life be like? Even though there’s¬† glamour in saying yes , there’s definitely power in a no.¬†¬†‘No’ will direct you on the right path.¬† I can’t tell you how many times I was rejected in my relationship quests when I was younger but let’s just say I was persistent, lol. The same determination I had stuck with me when I started applying for jobs (100 applications & 20 interviews later..¬†) . The experiences were frustrating yet it somehow gave me fuel to keep pushing myself to the point I had to stop and evaluate what was going on.¬† Chasing guys did not look pretty so when I finally gained a better understanding of who God created me to be¬†that’s when I became friends with my now husband. After applying to a million jobs and receiving no’s , it directed me on the path I’m on now.

‘No’ is good for your well-being. Making promises to everyone can be stressful and overwhelming.¬†When¬†you finally accept the fact that you can’t please everyone it feels like a sigh of relief.¬†Creating the guest list for my wedding was very stressful at first. I had so many people in mind I pictured at the wedding but it was conflicting with the actual cost. I looked up a great method on how to handle the guest list and it relieved my stress tremendously!

‘No’ helps you think clearer . Honestly , saying no right away is not¬†my first response. There’s so much power in our words but to mentally process what we’re asked first¬†is power all on its on. How many times did we agree to something without thinking through the question first? When I submitted my DAT (Dental Admission Test) scores , the schools sent me emails immediately after. They knew my character but wanted me to push more academically. The¬†schools said ‘no, not now’ ,which¬†was great because it allowed me think clearer on what I wanted .

To hear the word ‘no’ can bring so much emotions , good and bad, depending on how you receive it.¬† I think God created that word with us in mind. He wants to protect us, keep us in perfect health, and mature our thinking . So the next time you’re rejected be joyful because something great is on your way!

 

Live as an adult& think like a child

You ever sat at a bench and people-watched? Random yet interesting especially children. They’re funny, straight to the point, full of energy, and believe almost anything. As a child I believed in a lot even if it didn’t make logical sense , you had my support 100%. For instance , how did Santa get into my house without a chimney or a key? I wasn’t sure but I knew he came because I had half eaten cookies to prove it lol.

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It’s something about children¬†I truly enjoy. They were¬†the inspiration behind my career decision in second grade and even now as a children’s church teacher I admire them at times. I appreciate how children are wowed at¬†the simplest things .They’re ex- friends¬†then best friends in the same hour,¬†you may have to talk to them once…twice…or a million and¬†yet it’s¬†easier to be yourself to them than an adult sometimes.

One place I can count on where everyone has a childlike mentality is Disney World. The atmosphere is so friendly and carefree . I know the times I’ve gone I think I actually felt like it was a part of my happily ever after.. like I didn’t have go back to work the following week.l8uobo-l8uoa1mickeyandminniemouse¬†I live for¬†these¬†kind of moments.¬†Moments of¬†random joy , peace, forgiveness, ¬†and faith. As our bodies mature into adults I wonder what shifts our thinking ? Life’s lessons are taught when we’re in our humblest state, when we’re able to listen and follow direction. I think children are the best teachers¬†because¬†they don’t understand everything and its okay.. what a great characteristic!

While it’s the season to take on responsibilities as adults there are seasons for us to enjoy life with a childlike way of thinking. Things will pop up in life where it doesn’t make sense and it’s okay God’s got it all figured out. There are times you’ll have to forgive others and even though you may not be friends , it’s okay just move on . It’s time to¬†embrace the silly , carefree moments and enjoy life as a kid :-)!IMG_1124

Just Do It but how?

I’ve seen Nike’s, Just Do It ,logo for years and would associate¬†it with working out. Stop complaining , put on their clothes , and just do it . Seems simple enough but when I started hearing this same phrase applied to other areas in my life , I ask how?nike_just_do_it_wallpaper_smoke___paintball_effect_by_ryanr08-d4h54qcRecently I’ve been getting the same response everywhere including podcasts I’ve listened to but until yesterday I believe I finally have my ‘but how?’ question answered.

According to Think and Grow Rich Chick , she came up with 5 ways for¬†making goals do-able ,¬†so I’ll just paraphrase what I’ve learned.

  • Goal setting requires a deadline and commitment

-Make sure your goals aren’t wishes . Create realistic deadlines

  • Believe it’s possible!

– Eliminate any doubts that may enter your mind

  • Find your ‘rabbit’

– Think & Grow Chick used the example of track and field when the person running the fastest (rabbit) is closely followed by the 2nd place runner. The ‘rabbit’ is the one setting the trend.

-Whatever is your goal there is someone that already achieved it so instead of being jealous take note of what they do . Being consistent is key!

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  • Find Puzzle pieces

– Break down your goal to 5-10 things and find out what it takes for each puzzle piece

-Choose what you can work on at the moment and continue everyday

 

 

#Picture Perfect

I don’t think words could explain how happy I was in these moments so you could only imagine how grateful I was to have an amazing photographer . The picture on the left was from one of our engagement photos. Our theme was Princess and The Frog , I was inspired from the era so I chose old poses for our shoot. We had lots of fun that day , so much joy and laughter. Laughing from my then fianc√© picking me up three times before we got a good photo, looking at each other awkwardly in our pose while the photographer changed his lens, and how some man stopped to look at us take photos then asked if we had money. What a perfect picture!

The picture on the right was from one of our wedding pictures of course. Extremely happy to say at the very least lol but let’s look at the picture closer. I was NERVOUS in that moment!! I’m known to be a private person including showing public displays of affection so for this moment I had to practice lol. I remembered telling my husband “please! don’t be extra !!” I would imagine me fainting in front of everyone ( dramatic) as I walked down the aisle but the truth was everything was blurry and the only ones that were in focus was my pastor and husband. Another picture perfect!

How many times we look at a photo and feel inspired to accomplish what someone else has? Honestly I think it’s all of us which is fine but good pictures are like best friends at times. Pictures are straight to the point capturing the best moments, not showing what happens behind the scenes like the editing that needs to take place for a good picture. Just like our vision. We see the final picture and in order for us to have that perfect picture its going to require a lot of work. Distractions will come , fear may try to make your situation bigger than what it is, but stay encouraged because you’re creating your picture perfect ūüôā

What’s your S.T.O.R.Y?

Did you grow up thinking you would¬†move straight into your purpose but instead you’re feeling bound to one area in your life? Well I’m here to say you’re not by yourself . I’ve joined this adventure where I’m learning more about myself as well as gain better understanding of what God wants me to do.¬† After graduating from college I noticed a trend with the jobs I accepted. The agenda of the job had similarities even the small detail of where I sat was all too familiar. In my current position my coworkers sit in the office part of lab while my cubicle is located in the actual lab surrounded by raw materials ( the ingredients listed on the back of your lotion, body wash, etc). When I first noticed this I said to myself, ” what a coincidence !” but is it a coincidence ? or is it the way you view the situation?

Without a doubt my passion is in dentistry so why am I getting skin care jobs? Could it be the best route to build my character ? Am I doing more in dentistry than I had imagined? Could the reason why I’m seated around raw materials be to spark creativity and curiosity? Since the past two months of discovering myself , I just started reading this awesome book called , Cure for The Common Life, by Max Lucado. It’s all about finding your purpose and even though I’m not finished reading I highly recommend! One of the things he mentioned that I wanted to share is finding your S.T.O.R.Y, here’s what I mean:

Strengths: What are your knacks? What do you do naturally¬† where it’s hard for others?

Topic: Once you know your verb look for nouns. What objects do I like working with? Animals? people? This can be as abstract as an idea or concrete as fruit.

Optimal Conditions: What are the factors that trigger your motivation? Love to respond to a need? Motivated by problems? or predictable routine? clear defined structure or open ended possibilities?

Relationships: Think over your moments of success. How did you relate to people? working as a team or functioned better alone?

Yes: what makes you say you were made to do this?

It may take a few seconds to figure out your purpose while it takes others (including myself) a little while longer and that’s ok! Reflecting from your past up to your present takes time . No matter where you are¬†currently know its not your resting place. You were created to do more than just one thing! We already have the tools we just have to perfect our skills before using them. Stay encouraged ūüôā

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Background Story::¬† I’ve always wanted a relationship with chemistry…¬† I mean a true relationship, but we couldn’t see eye to eye on things.¬† I thought we would be dynamic at the beginning, however that’s when chem started showing their ego side: organic.¬† That’s when I felt us going our separate ways.¬† Time passed as a histo tech and I could not get chem out of my mind.¬† I seeked advice from counselors, dental committees, and they gave me a few options including how great it would be to show our relationship was a success no matter how many times I tried…

So, I’m back trying to make the relationship work, and this time when I see their ego I can not give up this time.¬† I’m not sure if it’s the formulas or my one way of thinking in the past, but chemistry has been a struggle for me.¬† Since I decided to give a 100% of my focus towards this relationship without a doubt I needed to pray.¬† Pray for strength , change my way of thinking , and make chemistry fun to learn! ¬†The funny thing is that I didn’t think God would take this prayer seriously until…

I received a job offer at a cosmetic company as a cosmetic chemist!¬† As a cosmetic chemist I will be able to formulate skin, hair, and makeup products. ¬†Even though I’ve just started I must say¬† it’s a great job and its involving chemistry! Now that God has given me this opportunity to use my creativity and¬†¬†see another side of chemistry I know it won’t be hard to fall in love .

To that place

Take me there..

Yes, I said take me there

Take me on stage so I can sing with delight

Speak boldly without a tremble and no one can detect my fright

Take me to my dental office where my name is engraved on the door

So I can help create a beautiful smile to the ones who can and can’t afford

Take me to that place so I could relax on a boat and cruise

Or where I’m hearing God constantly and have nothing to lose.

You know I’m not looking for you every minute

Because the fuel you give is enough to finish.

Finish my thoughts then create a plan

Envisioning the outcome making sure its detailed for anyone to understand.

Yes, you’re sometimes a distraction to my concentration

And other times a help mate in tune with my future creations

You help me to see my potential, you + music on the same team

So can you take me there, where its not yet reality

My sweet daydream?