What is glossophobia? It’s the fear of public speaking and something I hate the most. No matter how hard I avoid speaking , the environment creates a platform that requires everyone to talk . In school, I was the student that would not make eye contact with the teacher. I figured if we made eye contact there was a higher chance of them calling my name. I never liked introducing myself or presenting to a crowd of people. I’m not sure how I dread speaking in front of groups of people, but I was a cheerleader and jazz/tap dancer, go figure.. Maybe it was the fact I felt comfortable performing as a group rather than by myself. Either way, as I continue to grow I notice there is no escape for public speaking. So instead of hiding it’s time to face the music,awkward stares, and everything else public speaking may bring.
You’ve arrived on time for your checkup appointment and pretty excited because you know the time you sit down you’re going to be called. You already gave the receptionist the necessary paperwork and you’re ready. Hmm.. they will call me soon, you think to yourself, so to help pass the time you start to notice your environment. The waiting room is filled with people that need to be seen as well.
One by one, everyone is being called to the back and it’s starting to get frustrating because there were people that did not have to wait as long. Your frustration builds to anxiety and now you’re going up to the front desk asking questions. They reassure you that the doctor will see you soon, he’s preparing some things for you; however, your patience grows thin. Your phone goes off from people sending messages asking,”why are you still waiting ?” “When are you going to move forward?”
You don’t respond because they wouldn’t understand. You did everything you were supposed to, now it’s your job to wait and be called. Finally realizing your pacing back and forth is not changing the outcome, your attitude changes while you wait. You take advantage of the wait by embracing small opportunities like reading the magazines or checking your email on your phone. Time goes by but you’re gaining wisdom and understanding. You stopped focusing on the messages, the people that were seen by the doctor before you, at that moment the door flung open and you knew the wait was over.
How many of us had moments like this? We ‘wait’ anxiously for God’s big call while overlooking small opportunities to grow. I know this is a challenge for me but as a father, God, constantly reassures he will not forget about me. It may seem like everyone is moving forward before me but God knows I did everything I was supposed to and now it’s my job to wait for the door to open. So stay encourage and know that soon our wait will be over 🙂
You ever sat at a bench and people-watched? Random yet interesting especially children. They’re funny, straight to the point, full of energy, and believe almost anything. As a child I believed in a lot even if it didn’t make logical sense , you had my support 100%. For instance , how did Santa get into my house without a chimney or a key? I wasn’t sure but I knew he came because I had half eaten cookies to prove it lol.
It’s something about children I truly enjoy. They were the inspiration behind my career decision in second grade and even now as a children’s church teacher I admire them at times. I appreciate how children are wowed at the simplest things .They’re ex- friends then best friends in the same hour, you may have to talk to them once…twice…or a million and yet it’s easier to be yourself to them than an adult sometimes.
One place I can count on where everyone has a childlike mentality is Disney World. The atmosphere is so friendly and carefree . I know the times I’ve gone I think I actually felt like it was a part of my happily ever after.. like I didn’t have go back to work the following week. I live for these kind of moments. Moments of random joy , peace, forgiveness, and faith. As our bodies mature into adults I wonder what shifts our thinking ? Life’s lessons are taught when we’re in our humblest state, when we’re able to listen and follow direction. I think children are the best teachers because they don’t understand everything and its okay.. what a great characteristic!
While it’s the season to take on responsibilities as adults there are seasons for us to enjoy life with a childlike way of thinking. Things will pop up in life where it doesn’t make sense and it’s okay God’s got it all figured out. There are times you’ll have to forgive others and even though you may not be friends , it’s okay just move on . It’s time to embrace the silly , carefree moments and enjoy life as a kid :-)!
The morning of my wedding and I wanted to jump on the hotel bed with my girls lol. All the planning and frustration ended in my blueprint thoughts the day before. After hearing Beyoncé “Sorry” played over 7 times on the radio, I felt like I was definitely living unapologetically.
I’m not sure if I could blame myself being an introvert or just my way of thinking but I was (still am sometimes) living within limits. When I was a kid I remember apologizing to my friends seemed like all the time for something random lol.. but somehow those innocent disagreements created habits for me. I got into the habit of saying “I’m sorry” to the point it seemed like it was a part of my everyday language. I stayed in those limits because I wanted to be liked and I thought if I apologized first it would be easy to move on .
Starting a blog was pretty hard at first. I was used to sharing my thoughts on paper and locking them with a key until my husband kept saying blogging can help me . When I finally took the limits off of my ‘what if ‘ thoughts that’s when IntrovertedFillings was born. There were plenty of times I stayed in my comfort zone especially with food (that’s another story ) and having all of that built in with nothing to do at work one afternoon I told myself there has to be more in life . Do you like to stay in the comfort zone? Do you like to feel like you’re in control by staying in the lines?
Well I do too, but I must admit taking the limits off or ‘coloring outside the lines’ gives me a new outlook on things. For me to actually stop and say “I know there’s more to life than a 9 to 5 , burger & fries, saying sorry for things I didn’t cause” translated to “God I need to take the limits off my actions and I want EVERYTHING you have for me .” I promise after I said that a part of my brain was unlocked with ideas lol. I still have some ways to go but what I can say there is peace in living unapologetically and I encourage you to try it as well 🙂 .
In general ,the electrical outlet is used to connect an electrical device to an electricity supply. Just about everything we use requires an outlet : cellphones , computers, TV, etc., etc. Your cellphone is charged and ready to be used for a couple of hours then it has to let you know it needs energy. The same is applied in our everyday lives. Energy is drained constantly from work, relationships , or just going through the day in general and that’s when we ask , ” Where’s my outlet?”
Growing up I loved being to myself ( still do !) , I had friends but it was something about my ‘me time’ . I had a lot of moments where I didn’t feel pretty enough and got picked on . Besides crying to my mom and friends I needed a place to vent that’s how my outlet to write started. I used my imagination a lot and it introduced me to poetry. As I wrote my poems helped me to clear my emotions and become creative. I guess it even compliments to my blog today :-). My next outlet I love to have is music. Music for me takes me to another place and I use it a lot at work lol ! Pandora , my best friend, helps me get into a productive mood and it seems to help me move faster depending on the song. Another outlet that gets me into a better mood , Instagram. I follow a bunch of Ig’s comedians and I just watch their short clips when I feel like laughing . Playing tennis is my favorite outlet after a long week of work . After a few hits back and forth it not only clears your mind but it’s a fun way of working out ! Last but not least , the outlet I use everyday is spending time with God. I have to speak to him before I start work and later during the day . He gives so much of himself I feel charged and ready for whatever the day is bringing. Besides speaking to him , I like to study scriptures and read devotionals . While I feel I may be giving 40% , like a cell phone battery, he in turns gives so much more .
So your outlet(s) can be a number of things , just make sure you stay connected to your source of energy!
“Why do you want to become a dentist?” Honestly, when I struggled academically in college , being nervous speaking in front of people, and other obstacles I ask myself the same thing. As I tried to research other careers I found that it was a waste of time because my passion was in dentistry. Being in a single parent home where finances were limited, going to the dentist wasn’t a priority nor were we educated on how important it was to maintain healthy teeth and gums. I had a lot of insecurities growing up and it eventually affected the way I smiled. I was able to get braces for a short period but due to finances I had to get them off sooner than expected. One day my mom and I went to a big dental clinic where hundreds of us stood in line waiting to be examined by health professionals including dentists. Hours later , they announced “NO MORE PATIENTS!” This was because there wasn’t enough dentists. After those experiences , it motivated me to learn more about dentistry and how I can make a difference. As I continue to volunteer and gain insight in the dental arena , I learn there are hundreds of people like me. By God’s will , my desire is to educate people on the importance of having a healthy mouth and how it affects their overall health. Also , to help build one’s confidence by improving their smile . This won’t be easy but I’m determined to help someone through my journey .