Don’t Settle

When you’ve been working towards a goal for so long and still have yet to enjoy the results, it can be very frustrating. I get it, I’ve been there and sometimes still there depending on the situation. Speaking up was never one of my favorites. If the crowd believed in one thing I would disagree ..silently and move on with my day . This habit of mine was cool until I got older and am now seeing it from a different angle.

When I was younger , having a relationship with someone was very important to me. I didn’t know how I felt was really a void that I needed filled. I couldn’t imagine myself being married to the guys I liked during that time however, I was able to settle for the moment because I felt special.

I remembered going on a job interview and I felt pretty good about the direction it was going in.  During the interview, they told me what they were willing to pay and that was final. I felt confident about the details of the job but felt kind of shaky in their pay offer. I thought about the location of the job ,the lack of equipment they had in the lab , and figured they didn’t have the money so I started to settle.

For the past couple of months, my husband and I been looking into apartments. As time passed we made a decision and started to move into our unit. Like most apartments , the apartment model will not look exactly like you imagine, so this was old news. However, our apartment looked COMPLETELY different and because I wanted to be humble.. I started to settle.

 

In relationships, I learned overtime not to settle. I started learning about God’s love and the fact he already had someone for me .

In the job offer, I had a few days to research how to negotiate my salary. I didn’t settle in their final offer, I recognized their need in the company and how I could help satisfy those areas. They gave me exactly what I asked.

With the apartment, my husband and I prayed for favor , and didn’t settle with what they initially gave us. We were able to change into another apartment and pay the same rent quote from the first unit they offered us.

So in everything, recognize your worth and don’t settle for less. You’re a king’s kid ūüôā

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Background Story::¬† I’ve always wanted a relationship with chemistry…¬† I mean a true relationship, but we couldn’t see eye to eye on things.¬† I thought we would be dynamic at the beginning, however that’s when chem started showing their ego side: organic.¬† That’s when I felt us going our separate ways.¬† Time passed as a histo tech and I could not get chem out of my mind.¬† I seeked advice from counselors, dental committees, and they gave me a few options including how great it would be to show our relationship was a success no matter how many times I tried…

So, I’m back trying to make the relationship work, and this time when I see their ego I can not give up this time.¬† I’m not sure if it’s the formulas or my one way of thinking in the past, but chemistry has been a struggle for me.¬† Since I decided to give a 100% of my focus towards this relationship without a doubt I needed to pray.¬† Pray for strength , change my way of thinking , and make chemistry fun to learn! ¬†The funny thing is that I didn’t think God would take this prayer seriously until…

I received a job offer at a cosmetic company as a cosmetic chemist!¬† As a cosmetic chemist I will be able to formulate skin, hair, and makeup products. ¬†Even though I’ve just started I must say¬† it’s a great job and its involving chemistry! Now that God has given me this opportunity to use my creativity and¬†¬†see another side of chemistry I know it won’t be hard to fall in love .

The Sun/Son

Your beauty is beyond compare

I thank my heavenly father and the sun as I began to stare

I’m in awe as you literally brighten my day

exposing all of nature’s beauty,¬†its function,¬†its ways

Now don’t get me wrong, the rain and snow still have its part

but when your glory comes through the clouds it just swells my heart‚ô•

everyone can feel your presence , your warmth, your love we can’t avoid

the fact that at times you’re hard to resist you make it easy for us to go out and enjoy

the birds sing praises, the trees sway from time to time

as you sit and be still confirming everything is fine

in you there’s production, there’s growth, there’s room for correction

because of your light we’re able to see and receive clear direction

the night is sure to come along with rest from day’s fun

so until next time I am in your presence, your beauty I will continue to be in awe from

The sun(son).

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“I am Beautiful”

k14885514¬†Growing up I struggled with my self esteem. I would question myself with ” Why do I look this way?” or ¬†“Why they don’t think I’m attractive?” and the list continues. As my insecurities built its foundation it not only showed in my¬† behavior¬†by seeking validation but there were people that seemed to be on specific assignments to break me down . As time moved on I got to a point where I did not want to be stuck with the same mentality I had growing up. Now, I can say I have moved from that place of¬† “STUCK” and into a place of confidence.¬† Let me say¬† THIS IS A GREAT PLACE to be and if you’re not there let me tell you how I got there::

‚ô• Get out of my feelings : Sometimes the thing/ person that holds us back is ourselves. I kept recycling the negative comments over and over in my head years later and the truth was the ones that picked on me moved on with their lives ..it was me that needed to move on.

‚ô•¬† Compliment myself: The best person to compliment you first thing in the morning is yourself. I started saying declarations before I went out and interacted with people . Want an example? “Thank you God, for making me beautiful inside and out , pretty inside and out. Thank you for allowing others to notice but most importantly me.” I know it may seem weird but I promise it works! I started getting compliments out of nowhere and I knew without a doubt it was the faith I deposited into my decree every morning, spending time and building relationship with God.

‚ô• Less focus on self: It is very easy to see your flaws but sometimes can become a distraction of recognizing God’s grace . He loves us so much and to focus on our appearance all day¬† I could only imagine it probably hurts his feelings because we were created in his image. There were moments as I would get dressed and think on what I needed to accomplish at the time , God would interfere into my thoughts to say “You look beautiful daughter”.¬† Of course these are moments when I could still have a scarf or rollers in my hair! Helping other people whether its volunteering , at a store , or just giving a compliment and letting them know they look great is very beautiful.

Remember there is death and life in the power of the tongue (prov. 18:21) . So reach out to others by giving a simple compliment ūüôā

You are Beautiful!!