Hearing His Voice

You ever been around people that just brag about their adventure and you just want to experience it for yourself? Well, this was me and the year 2015 was definitely an experience to remember. For a couple of years (at least it felt that way) I was desiring to have another type of experience with God. I read about him, sung about him , prayed to him , and felt I needed more. I wanted to hear his voice . I knew God had different ways of getting my attention but I wanted to hear him for myself.
I prayed and prayed ..nothing happened. I turned off all of my distractions..nothing happened. I even went on a complete fast ..and NOTHING HAPPENED! That season was very frustrating ! It’s like calling a restaurant to make an order and no one is picking up the phone so you’re questioning if you even have the right number, lol. I talked with my aunt and her response was to keep waiting . So one fun fact about me is that I’m an introvert ( I wouldn’t say I’m quiet 100% )but my mind stays busy like NYC traffic, which I guess made it hard to hear God.
One day in January 2015, the weather was at its coldest and living in the south with snow was the motivation I needed to stay in from work. I had my t.v off , just finished a meal , and started washing dishes. As I washed the dishes in complete silence it was at that moment I heard his voice. I always imagined I would hear a loud , thunder, manly voice and I’m glad that didn’t happen because I probably would of ran out of my apartment,lol.
The best way I could describe how he sounded to me is similar to my thoughts. A confident, strong sounding thought if that make any sense. If you could imagine hearing your parents speak to you but in your voice , that’s what it was . I knew it was him because I know how I think and talk. He said ” hello daughter , it’s great to hear from you .” My eyes stretched and I felt overwhelmed with joy. The experience I waited so long for finally came and the anticipation was worth every minute. 

The Perfect Potluck

If I don’t remember anything else from my first job after college , it is potluck dinners! We had potlucks for birthday’s, people leaving, holidays, you name it and there was a list of what everyone was bringing.

Usually people would bring a different dish to the table and it complimented the other dishes. For instance , if someone brought chicken another person had vegetables and together the food fulfilled its purpose. Since everyone would bring something different there was no room for comparison but the goal to serve each other.

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Imagine the food brought to the potluck as God-given gifts instead. Everyone’s gifts are prepared to serve others not just themselves. Could you imagine everyone bringing the same type of food to a potluck? How boring would that be?! I guess God thought the same thing and made certain that we each have unique gifts. One thing I’ve noticed at potlucks , sometimes two people would bring the same dish but the tastes were different based on how they were prepared. I’m learning it’s similar to answering your call in life. Your calling can look exactly like someone else’s , which makes it easy to compare because you already know what the result should look like. However, God prepares us differently and it ends up being hard to compare yourself.

In the perfect potluck , God has blessed you with gifts that compliment another’s gift. You’re being prepared in a different way compared to your Facebook friend so you can’t compare the process. In the perfect potluck, you’re there to serve and fulfill his purpose.

 

The Ideal Gentleman

He doesn’t ask for much, just to believe

and whatever I ask I shall receive.

He walks with me and waits as I become transparent

then corrects me with love just like a parent.

Constantly protecting me and wanting what’s best

teaching me his ways through a series of tests.

His wisdom is beyond what I was taught in school

sharing the way he thinks throughout the day gives me fuel.

He opens doors that none can shut, he closes them with grace

always having his best interests with the challenges I may face.

He showers me with compliments saying ‘daughter you are beautiful’

where confidence is the new foundation and to validate is no longer an issue.

He gave his life for me when there was a time I wouldn’t give an hour

now I consistently seek his face so I can witness his power.

People will try to prove him wrong because they don’t understand

how one could love unconditionally and continue to be

a gentleman.

 

 

 

When choosing your beautysquad…

What a time it has been ! From preparing for my wedding to now being the wife God has prepped me to become I am finally getting into the groove of things and ready to read/share some exciting things with you all!

First I must say that wedding prepping is noo joke!! Being more of an introvert I knew we needed a small wedding party , so we decided on 3-4 girls and guys.

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The beauties I chose was based on our personal relationship and changes we were all

accomplishing this year: attending college, living independently , and of course marriage!

After popping the question and receiving a yes from everyone it was game time.

When choosing a dress: I knew the color was purple but what I originally envision from Pinterest did not manifest. I compared several designs to my bridesmaids shapes then decided to go to David’s  Bridal because they had dresses on sale and plenty of options. Location: Two of my girls lived in another state and the other two lived in the same area as me ..this was challenging because I loved being hands- on but wasn’t able to be everywhere physically. Researching roles: Because of location assigning roles was the key to getting things accomplished.[ This was not effective until about 2 months before the wedding!]

Throughout the hiccups my girls were the absolute best of my answered prayers

I wanted to have a stress free, full of laughter, joyful wedding day and my beauty squad

definitely delivered 🙂

Are you in your element?

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In certain cultures you'll find five essential elements, while others may claim four, 
whichever is the case, every element serves its purpose. One element's purpose may be 
to create and destroy while another is to replenish. Each understands its role
and operate in their full ability. Now let's translate this to everyday life>>
Do you recognize your purpose in someone's life? 
For myself, I recognize that I bring joy to others. I have a pretty upbeat 
attitude , smile all the time ,"Minnie Mouse" voice , and a sense of humor that 
makes people laugh even when I'm serious. I'm sure as time pass I will be able 
to recognize other areas God will allow me to excel in while helping others.
After recognizing my purpose I began observing the people in my life and what roles 
 they served. 
th50XA53E3This was/still not an easy process for me but it becomes easier over 
time thanks to God! I was once very naïve with my heart on my sleeve,but 
over time my observation skills upgraded and I started noticing patterns of behavior
that consistently took advantage of me. I started distancing myself from certain people
along with deleting contacts from my phone, yayyy :-) , lol ! Now with my smaller 
circle I have individuals for spiritual advice, dentistry, marriage, and etc. 
 Prov 15:22 says "Plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisers they succeed". 
It's very important to know the type of people you have in your ear and what you can 
offer as well. 

Let's operate in our elements , beautifuls!

In less than 130 days..

AshleyMarcus-96  In less than 130 days, I will be getting married to my best friend!! A rollercoaster of thoughts run through my head as I not only prepare for our wedding, my journey to dental school , but the next phase in life !  Growing up I was the child that loved playing with Barbie by myself (including dialogue ), wrote journal entries and poetry to express my feelings. Even as an adult, being able to walk into a quiet apartment after experiencing some of the worst college roommates is like living in a complete luxury.  In less than 130 days all of that will change , there will be a permanent adjustment. I’m believing God is going to take our faith to a whole new level, what I call

IMG_0250 “zip line faith”.  In less than 130 days I become one, where his feelings become my second nature and what seemed difficult during the first segment of our relationship will now be hilarious.  In less than 130 days I will receive what’s been promised for me. There is so much in store for all of us but sometimes it takes stepping out of our comfort zone in order to receive.

Where’s that disney prince when you need him?

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You may see reminders in Walmart, Walgreens, or some other store that starts with a ‘W’.. Perhaps when you turn on the tv there’s commercials and movies to remind you of this day just in case you forgot . Can you take a guess?? It’s Valentine’s day! A day where you express your love to that special person a million times more than the rest of the year and etc etc. I’m not anti V-day because for one my prince and I will be celebrating 7 years together!!! So I’m pretty excited to just maybe go to the movies and out to eat ..keep it simple. However , before my “prince charming ” came and swept me off my feet I always wondered ..

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In grade school , I used to envy other little girls that would get gifts from their boyfriends or when the school intercom would interrupt to ask for whoever to come to the office and they would come back with balloons. I wanted that so badly , so I would ask my mom if she could do that for me so I could feel special at school. She didn’t interrupt my class but when I would go home after school I would see some gifts on my bed which made my day. I seeked attention from everywhere : chat rooms , internet dating,” ask your friend if they have a friend”. I was the worst when it came to validating my worth, lol .  My heart was broken plenty of times from guys that didn’t know my full potential and instead of moving on I would constantly try to put a band aid on my wound hoping it would get better. I started paying closer attention to the type I attracted at that time.. they looked different but  had the exact spirit ..it got a little better with the next person I liked but there was still something bad that messed up the equation.

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I then decided to pray for God to send someone for me. I wanted my father’s approval (can’t go wrong if you ask him). After I prayed I left it alone >> my tears, my heartbreaks , and the mind set I had thinking I needed man’s approval.  That was when I met my prince and the rest was history ♥. I didn’t even think on the fact that God had answered my prayer until a pastor was prophesying to me and acknowledged my conversation I had with God that night. There may be challenging moments like all relationships but the difference is we both go after God which builds our relationship , I get to be myself ..silly and flawed, and our friendship is the best! So I say that to say your Disney prince is coming . You don’t have to change your image like Ariel,  you don’t have to go to war like Mulan before he can see how special you are , and you don’t have to leave a trace of yourself to give him hints of where to find you like cinderella.

He’s going to come and while you wait seek after God . He knows what’s best for us and he loves when we come to him just like any father would. If you don’t have a date hang out with friends, gain some DIY skills from Pinterest, bake and watch some movies ..I think you got it, beautiful  🙂

thYour Disney prince is on the way..