Hearing His Voice

You ever been around people that just brag about their adventure and you just want to experience it for yourself? Well, this was me and the year 2015 was definitely an experience to remember. For a couple of years (at least it felt that way) I was desiring to have another type of experience with God. I read about him, sung about him , prayed to him , and felt I needed more. I wanted to hear his voice . I knew God had different ways of getting my attention but I wanted to hear him for myself.
I prayed and prayed ..nothing happened. I turned off all of my distractions..nothing happened. I even went on a complete fast ..and NOTHING HAPPENED! That season was very frustrating ! It’s like calling a restaurant to make an order and no one is picking up the phone so you’re questioning if you even have the right number, lol. I talked with my aunt and her response was to keep waiting . So one fun fact about me is that I’m an introvert ( I wouldn’t say I’m quiet 100% )but my mind stays busy like NYC traffic, which I guess made it hard to hear God.
One day in January 2015, the weather was at its coldest and living in the south with snow was the motivation I needed to stay in from work. I had my t.v off , just finished a meal , and started washing dishes. As I washed the dishes in complete silence it was at that moment I heard his voice. I always imagined I would hear a loud , thunder, manly voice and I’m glad that didn’t happen because I probably would of ran out of my apartment,lol.
The best way I could describe how he sounded to me is similar to my thoughts. A confident, strong sounding thought if that make any sense. If you could imagine hearing your parents speak to you but in your voice , that’s what it was . I knew it was him because I know how I think and talk. He said ” hello daughter , it’s great to hear from you .” My eyes stretched and I felt overwhelmed with joy. The experience I waited so long for finally came and the anticipation was worth every minute. 

The Perfect Potluck

If I don’t remember anything else from my first job after college , it is potluck dinners! We had potlucks for birthday’s, people leaving, holidays, you name it and there was a list of what everyone was bringing.

Usually people would bring a different dish to the table and it complimented the other dishes. For instance , if someone brought chicken another person had vegetables and together the food fulfilled its purpose. Since everyone would bring something different there was no room for comparison but the goal to serve each other.

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Imagine the food brought to the potluck as God-given gifts instead. Everyone’s gifts are prepared to serve others not just themselves. Could you imagine everyone bringing the same type of food to a potluck? How boring would that be?! I guess God thought the same thing and made certain that we each have unique gifts. One thing I’ve noticed at potlucks , sometimes two people would bring the same dish but the tastes were different based on how they were prepared. I’m learning it’s similar to answering your call in life. Your calling can look exactly like someone else’s , which makes it easy to compare because you already know what the result should look like. However, God prepares us differently and it ends up being hard to compare yourself.

In the perfect potluck , God has blessed you with gifts that compliment another’s gift. You’re being prepared in a different way compared to your Facebook friend so you can’t compare the process. In the perfect potluck, you’re there to serve and fulfill his purpose.

 

The Ideal Gentleman

He doesn’t ask for much, just to believe

and whatever I ask I shall receive.

He walks with me and waits as I become transparent

then corrects me with love just like a parent.

Constantly protecting me and wanting what’s best

teaching me his ways through a series of tests.

His wisdom is beyond what I was taught in school

sharing the way he thinks throughout the day gives me fuel.

He opens doors that none can shut, he closes them with grace

always having his best interests with the challenges I may face.

He showers me with compliments saying ‘daughter you are beautiful’

where confidence is the new foundation and to validate is no longer an issue.

He gave his life for me when there was a time I wouldn’t give an hour

now I consistently seek his face so I can witness his power.

People will try to prove him wrong because they don’t understand

how one could love unconditionally and continue to be

a gentleman.

 

 

 

Ephesians 6:7

Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the lord, not people- Ephes.6:7

Before I start with my daily tasks at work I have to pray for strength, wisdom, and the right attitude to serve. I don’t know about you but this is a hard scripture to meditate on sometimes. To serve wholeheartedly, what does that mean? Well to serve is to perform duties for another individual and wholeheartedly is to be completely sincere, enthusiastic. So just that part alone I should be enthusiastic to help others..right.

unnamed My very first job was at Subway and ‘serving wholeheartedly’ was the last thing on my mind. Sure I always had a smile on my face but I did not enjoy the details of sandwich making. I’ve matured in my ways of thinking though I recognize I am still learning how to serve wholeheartedly through my job experiences. As the scripture continues it not only say serve wholeheartedly but as if you’re serving the lord, not people. Random but I seriously wonder if that’s Chick-Fil-A’s mission statement.images (1) They are known to give with a cheerful attitude in spite of how they really feel or how customers may respond. I wonder when I had some of the roughest days at work would the result be any different if I imagined serving God instead. If I could imagine making God a sub would he be satisfied with how I made it? Or as a histo-tech, would God be satisfied in the way I dissected his tissue sample in a hurry? As a chemist, am I really serving wholeheartedly? Sometimes I like to compare my current moment to my volunteering moments. Serving becomes my heart when it comes to dental clinics. I can have a few hours of sleep and feel energized the following day to serve.

image1  Serve wholeheartedly, as if you are serving the lord, not people is a constant reminder for me as it may be for you. Your passion can be in one area but the needs of people can be found in all areas of life. Sure that one person gets on your nerves or the work is not the creme de la creme, join the club. The lord wants us to serve enthusiastically so he can reward us with something much bigger! So give your complete best with a smile and ask, “How can I serve you today?”

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Breaking up is hard work

“We would like to bring you on board with our company! Will you accept our offer?”  My moment had finally come ! 100 applications & 20 interviews later.. resulted in a job offer ! I was excited and thankful for God’s blessing ,oh how I waited for this transition , but somehow I needed time to reflect.

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I remembered when God promised to take me from my night job to place me elsewhere . The following day as I took my 15 min break I saw a beautiful rainbow that was confirmation for me. I was excited and wrote my 2 week notice … a YEAR ahead of time! I saved it to my computer , waiting on my golden willy wonka ticket for better opportunity. So, the moment had presented itself and I’m in awe. No longer having to get off work wee hours of the morning, taking 15 min breaks to refresh my mind from the workload by playing Lumosity on my phone, and being under strict management.  I was accustomed to everything and as much as I wasn’t fond of my love-hate relationship with the lab  I started feeling like I was going to miss the routine of things.

I learned a lot during those 4 years (eekk!) especially about God’s promise. He protected me from not getting fired , provided financially , and kept his promise . I was nervous about God answering my prayers but I realized in order to fulfill the vision he has for me I needed to press forward. Maybe its not a job you’re seeking but you’re praying and asking for help. God hears your every detail and when he answers he won’t leave anything out because he’s that awesome. It’s true you may not get your prayer answered the next day but as you mature you’ll notice how God is leading you to something beyond your imagination. I’m starting to learn God is in control and I need to obtain more of his character before I become a dentist. A part of being more like him requires breaking up with something even if its hard work.

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Ooh! Ooh! Pick me , pick me !!

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So I think it’s safe to say we’ve all been in this place before .. where we’re saying “Ooh! Ooh! pick me ! pick me !” or at least our actions demonstrated it. Maybe in your younger days you tried flagging down your teacher so you could give the correct answer or maybe it was when you were in P.E class and you didn’t want to get picked last. Well that’s the season I’m in now with job employment ….

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I’ve applied to over 100+ jobs , received about 20 interviews in a year timeframe, talk about EXHAUSTING! My actions are definitely saying “Hey pick me!!” but instead its like having a teacher overlook me on purpose or the P.E teacher skip over me and pick the students that’s  around me . I can honestly say I’ve never been the type to give up easily. I tried out for the cheerleading team for 3 years before I got accepted , in college years I struggled financially . Reflecting on moments like those taught me there are more ways to reach your blessing once you think outside the box.  Now back to the show::: 

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I watched how people around me got blessed with jobs, my pastor encouraging me every week to believe in faith, but my results still the same. I started questioning myself and feeling guilty after the interviews I had because I  would basically say how I am going to become a dentist . However, I can’t take all the credit..I think God is up to something. My intention with my current job was never to stay as long as I had and my prayer after every interview ” May the best candidate get the position, you know my purpose more than I know myself” . <-Well , I know he will surely answer prayers , that’s a definite lol ! But seriously, a lot of the jobs I applied for , in my mind I figured I would be able to apply some of it towards my overall goal . Interesting, because Isaiah 55:8-9 states “for my thoughts are not your thoughts neither are your ways my ways”. It’s easy to plan a goal but sometimes its not a strategic plan and we need help especially myself! I have a vision board and the jobs I applied for are nowhere near the board, I tell my fiancé I would like to get into dental school by a certain time so how does this all come together?

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By God’s grace. I read so many stories of successful people quitting their jobs to pursue their dreams and watched my peers successfully get new positions. I’ve done everything in my being to change my status but God has the blueprint . Once we get to a point where its exhausting that’s when God steps in and says ” That’s good now let me take it from here” Maybe I didn’t get that full time job because God knows it would be a delay in where I need to be .. To be honest this season is like an interview or ‘prove it to me’ with God. Everything I’ve mentioned in the interviews are being tested in these trial periods.He’s been building my character through interviews, interacting with different personalities, budgeting, being dependable, trustworthy, and  etc  in order to be that dentist I dream about.

So if you are in my shoes now please know you are not being overlooked and what God has in store is bigger than what we  can imagine.  Stay determined because we’re going to be picked soon!

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Being too busy..

Outside of work and shadowing dentists I also volunteer as a prayer partner at a local Christian tv station. It’s pretty straightforward : people call from all over and I pray for them.. prayer hotline. On this particular day  one of the prayer partners received a call from a lady that needed prayer for peace because she felt guilty. As the story unravels, the lady felt guilty because her neighbor committed suicide and God told her to see how they were doing the day before however, she was too busy.

I’m not sure about you but I know there have been plenty of times I’ve been too busy. There are times when it seems the hours skip by and I’m still trying to figure out what I want for breakfast. There were times I would be so preoccupied with things and at the end of the day I’ve still accomplished nothing. Somehow my results are different when God is in the equation, my day just seems to flow in balance. A lot of times we won’t have a clue to why he wants us to do something but its our job to go with the flow. (Jeremiah 29:11) “For I know the plans I have for you.. “.  There are so many people throughout the world that needs help and that may be waiting on someone like you and me to do just that. The job you’re seeking , degree you’re going after, business you’re creating is not just to benefit you but to benefit others as well  🙂 . So I challenge you and myself what can we do to help someone else today? Remember beautifuls, you’re never too busy to make a difference .

..trying not to become the worst cook in america

One of the  things I hear about dental school is time management. Time is essential when it comes to studying , spending time with family , and everything else. I try to manage my time well including learning how to be efficient.  So, one of my struggles is SWEETS ( part of my inspiration to my blog name, IntrovertedFillings )! I love sweets  , like one of my favorite channels is Food Network where I watch Cupcake Wars and Cuttthroat Kitchen .  Thing is , I don’t make time to create new food ( picky eater ) and I want to learn new things …just as long as I’m not in the kitchen for hours or burning the kitchen :-/.  One of my favorite sites I like to go on for inspiration would be Pinterest.  From exercises to diy arts & crafts , its amazing especially when it comes to finding quick recipes. Last night, I decided to try “biscoff cake in a mug” ..

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This isn’t the actual one I made but just wanted to give you a visual.  It tasted great and it only took a few minutes to prepare . The only thing is I wish I had some type of frosting or something but no time was wasted nor did I have a lot of dishes to wash whoo hoo!! Today I’m trying peach cobbler using cake mix and I hope the results are as good as the pictures they have on pinterest lol . Well, keep me in prayer when it comes to cooking/baking and for my taste buds to stop being judgmental to certain types of foods :-/. Take care !